Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Crazy Delicious Casserole



  • 1/2 packet leftover rosemary ham
  • 1/3 loaf slightly stale corn-rye bread, cubed, 1/3 cup crumbs reserved
  • 1 container TJ's asparagus, nuked and cooled, then chopped
  • 1 cup leeks, washed, chopped, and sauteed in olive oil
  • 6 eggs
  • 1 cup half and half
  • 1 cup lowfat milk
  • 1 teaspoon dijon mustard
Grease a 9 x15 baking dish. Put the ham, asparagus, and leeks in the dish and mix to distribute ingredients evenly.
Beat the eggs, then add the milk, half and half, and mustard. Beat well to combine. Pour custard mixture over other ingredients. Top with crumbs. Bake in a 350 oven until top is brown and custard is set.

Fennel Soup

  • 1 fennel bulb (bulb, stalks, and greens), chopped
  • 1 large Granny Smith apple, cored and chopped
  • 1 onion (roughly the same amount of onion as apple), chopped
  • olive oil
  • salt
  • pepper
  • 1 cup (or so) of half and half
Heat some olive oil in a pan and saute the onion, apple, and fennel until the vegetables are tender but not browned.
Transfer vegetables to crock pot, add 1/4 tsp salt, and enough water to cover the vegetables. Cook on low until the vegetables are soft (about 3 hours). 
Puree the vegetables, stir in the cream, and season with pepper.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Lofty Goals for Winter Break

Ah, the first minutes of freedom, when anything seems possible:
  • clean the house
  • decorate the tree
  • actually see friends and family (if anyone remembers who I am at this point)
  • weekly reports
  • design data tracking form
  • math planning
  • confine work to a max of 2 days
  • clean out work binder so I can actually find stuff
  • stock the freezer with muffins and entrees
  • resolve cell phone issue
  • update Ravelry and Flickr
  • refine report to business meeting 
  • committee notes
  • nametag schedule
  • read! Meet my goal of 74 books read by 12/31
  • snuggle up with the cat, watch movies, and knit

Last Day Before Break

Highlights of the day:
  • watching two of my struggling readers do victory dances when they got their reading improvement awards
  • real food party: spaghetti and "lasagna" (really penne with meat sauce and cheese), LOTS of fruit, mac and ham salad, tuna salad, hot cider, frozen bananas with chocolate and coconut, cupcakes
  • Watching the K teachers lead 60 kindergarteners through "It Must Be Santa"
  • Sending home the last of those darn crayfish
  • 80% of my students improved on their English Language Arts exams as compared to the first test this year
  • All 6 of my reading intervention students made significant progress
  • the Sunshine committee's fantastic breakfast for the staff





Thursday, November 05, 2009

small things

My school is participating in the Mindful Schools program, which means that we get a guest teacher twice a week for fifteen sessions. They teach the kids mindful listening, breathing, seeing, moving, eating, and so on. They also teach "heartfulness": kind thoughts and actions. Today's lesson focused on gratitude. I was absolutely touched that two kids said they were thankful for their little brothers. Now that I think about it, I'm really impressed that material things weren't really mentioned. Someone was glad for their home, many for their families, and many for their pets. The homework for the day was to think of small things to notice that made us feel grateful.

Here are mine for the day:
  • Hearing D. read with expression for the first time ever
  •  leaving work before it was totally dark
  • sweet flock of bushtits in the tree outside my window
  • getting a head start on those pesky weekly reports
  • candycane Joe's are back!
  • arugula, avocado, and tomato salad
 

Friday, August 14, 2009

Last Real Day of Freedom


I'm going to be in trainings for the next 4 days straight, and after that I'll just be insanely running around. So today was my last chance to play for a while. I entertained myself by going to Smart & Final and the Old Oakland Farmers Market and wandering around Chinatown.

I have never been in the Smart & Final, and I found it immensely entertaining. "Wow, look at that, a quart of yellow egg dye! A container of cumin that would last a lifetime! A five-pound bag of Good and Plenty candy!" But I also found useful items, such as a mophead, stain remover, black peppercorns, and chiles in adobo sauce. Yes, I am easily entertained. What of it?

The farmers market yielded excellent finds as well. A baker's dozen of All Star tamales, organic tomatoes, pesticide free peaches, plus dried purple posole from Ratto's. The real prizes, though, were a bouquet of peppers and a mint bush. Here's a picture of what was left of the mint after I made a double batch of mint simple syrup.


I scored a couple colanders and a bag of lychees in my wanderings through the shops. No trip to Chinatown is complete without a Vietnamese roasted pork sandwich, and after a few false moves I finally found my favorite shop again. A trip to a bakery for almond cookies tempted me into trying a lotus seed cake and this almond sponge muffin:


The "muffin" was kind of strange, honestly. I'm hoping the cookies are better.

Finally home, I was immensely grateful for the foresight I exhibited when I got this started in the crockpot:


Chicken in mandarin orange sauce from Trader Joe's over rice with sauteed kale.

And the mint bush? Well,in addition to the simple syrup, 3 cups more went into red quinoa tabouleh with some of those tomatoes, all the bruised leaves and stems went into mint water. And there was still some left over for garnish.

Monday, August 03, 2009

Really?

This is what happens when all I really should get done is cleaning the house. I get enthralled by things like this goofy, goofy quiz. I wonder, on average, how most people relate to these things. Does everyone stare at the choices and think, where is e) None of the above? I know that after most elections, I am reminded that I am in the extreme minority on most issues and that it's only because I live in the Bay Area that I can forget this fact. Not that this quiz is political, but it gave me that same feeling of being decidedly outside the mainstream.
Maybe my quiz result was really supposed to be "You Act Like You Are 130 Years Old."



You Act Like You Are 30 Years Old



You are a thirty-something at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

You're responsible, wise, and have enough experience to understand a lot of the world.



You're at the point in your life where you understand yourself pretty well.

You are figuring out what you want... and how to get it!

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Summer Eating List

This article on 101 salads by Mark Bittman is totally worth the PITA registration process at the NY Times site. At least registration is free. 
This is my version of #81: sweet plums marinated in balsamic vinegar, celery, chicken, spinach, almonds, with a bit of olive oil and black pepper. 



And here is my version of #44: grilled cheese made with St. Pat's from Cowgirl Creamery with the rind cut off, tomatoes, arugula, olive oil and red wine vinegar with black pepper.


Both in a bowl made by my friend Marie, purchased to support my meeting's building fund. It makes everything taste sweeter.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

On Writing

A friend asked me yesterday how I promote writing fluency. She said her college students are convinced the draft should just come out perfectly. If you have to revise it, you've wasted your time. You should have just done it right to begin with. Because they are convinced it has to be right before they write, they are paralyzed.
I told her about a high school teacher I had who made us do all our writing in class. This system had its pedagogic flaws, because we were graded on first drafts. We never learned in this class how to revise our writing. It was also lazy, because merely giving reading and writing assignments and then judging them is not the same thing as actually teaching how to write. As my friend pointed out, though, at least it taught you to just sit down and write: no fussing over proper lighting or mood, no time to worry about if you really want to write, no waiting for inspiration to strike. Just get something on that page or fail for sure.
One thought I have about this is that fear of writing is in part based on a misunderstanding of what writing is, and particularly about what revision is. We think revision is only what we do when we write, and we see it as fixing mistakes. You've done a good job with writing if there's no red marks from your teacher on your page.
But when you (really) write, you learn what you think. You have the opportunity to learn what is clear for you and what you haven't really grasped yet. It deepens your thinking and allows you to enter into dialogue with others. But for writing to be this pathway to deeper thought, you have to take some risks. You've got to get your first thoughts out, and your first thought is rarely going to be your best thought. If it is, you probably are setting your sights too low. There's no way to the deeper thought except through the act of getting your current state of thought on the page. In other words, good writing, and therefore good thinking, requires hard work. 
So how do we convey this as teachers from elementary school to college? Taking care with how we teach about the writing process is one place to start. As my friend says, we tend to talk about it as if it were a linear process: first you plan, then you draft, then you revise, then you edit. The reality for real writing, of course, is much different. You think a little, draft a little, edit that typo because it bugs you, stop to think for a minute and move that sentence there, and rewrite that entire paragraph. Modeling and sharing evidence of that process repeatedly with students is really important.
I also think we need to look for and praise evidence of revision, persistence, thought and hard work even more than we praise "right" answers. To be clear here, I'm not talking about patronizing our students with "good try!" and its equivalents, nor am I advocating the idea that it doesn't matter if you get it right (or do it well) but only that you try. Product does matter. But we need to create a classroom culture that makes the paths to right answers, deep thought, and high-quality work accessible to all our students. So, when we see a kid getting a bit frustrated we should say, "way to stick with it, even though it is tough." When they finally get something right that's been hard for them, we can reflect back to them, "you thought you couldn't do it at first, but you stuck with it, and you got it right!" We can encourage students to reflect on how their thinking has changed: I used to think ______, but now I think ______ because ___________. We can look for examples of successful revision in our students' writing, and share the original version and the revised version. 
Ultimately, virtually all teachers are literacy teachers, regardless of what subject or what age we're assigned to teach. In order to teach well, then, we have to be readers, writers and learners ourselves.  If we don't authentically engage in real reading and writing, we can't help our students engage in real reading and writing, either. 



Monday, June 01, 2009

Now is the Needed Time

A few weeks ago, I saw Eric Bibb at the Freight, and I can't stop thinking about the charming and funny story he told about his song, Diamond Days. He wrote the song while stranded somewhere on a holiday where everything was closed. He had a crummy meal, and then ended up tinking around with his guitar in his crummy hotel room. His mood lifted a little as the lines came to him:
On a Wednesday, I was playin' in a biker bar
Outside Topeka
On that Friday I was playin' on a blues cruise 
Goin' to Dominica
A few months later, he was talking over his tour schedule with his agent and asked where he was going to be playing next. His agent replied, "You're not going to believe this, but you're playing in biker bar, and it's, well, it's outside Topeka." A few months later, he was in fact on a cruise to Dominica. He concluded his story with this thought:
"Whatever you repeat, through song or in prayer, has a way of manifesting itself."
 A few songs later, he played an instrumental and then segued into Needed Time. The audience spontaneously joined in, making it a moment of gentle transcendence. I've been singing this song ever since.
Now is the needed time
right now is the needed time
right now is the needed time
I'm praying, won't you come by here
Even if you don't stay long, 
Even if you don't stay long,
Jesus, won't you come by here
I'm down on my bended knees
Down on my bended knees
Praying, won't you come by here.
We had horrible, horrible news at school last Tuesday. A boy who had been our student and had just moved on to middle school this year was shot and killed by another 13 year old. Some of the news coverage has been sensitive, but a lot has been inane or even callous. The comments to the web articles are especially horrid. Lots of blame being thrown around, lots of racism, few voices of compassion and reason. Many, many comments like this:
Good riddance, suspect or victim, gangsters all the same.
The worst part is, there are comments posted by Josue's classmates that indicate that they've read this filth about their families, their neighborhood, themselves. Even before they read these comments, they knew what the world thinks about them, and they manifest it.

The first thing I did when I got home was call my aunt and ask her to pray for all of us: the children involved, their families, our principal, and the teachers. I'm still trying to sort out how and what to pray, so I'll borrow my aunt's faith for the moment. She can just get busy praying while I sort out my doubts and my demons.

 I've been struggling because I'm so angry and so sad. I feel like I'm trying to bail the ocean with a teaspoon, and now it's started raining. I'm sick of the folks who want to sit back and judge and place blame.  I'm also struggling because words, no matter how sincerely meant, are not enough. We need prayers of action. 

Yet action without discernment is merely reaction, and can cause more harm than good. And I think Bibb is right- what you repeat, in song or in prayer, has a way of manifesting itself. So I pray that each day I water the seeds of kindness, compassion, and brilliance in every child I encounter, especially those who are the most difficult. I pray that we make our school an oasis of safety and care for our students, and that any troubled child knows that they are seen and loved by every adult at the school. I pray for all the teachers, staff, administrators, parents, and children whose hearts broke over this, who still wrestle with despair. I pray that this tragedy ends here, and no more violence erupts from it. I pray that hearts are softened, that lessons are learned but blame is extinguished. I pray for the families involved, that they know they are not alone. I pray that we get better at teaching kids the skills they need to keep themselves safe and strong. I pray for the strength and humility to do the good that is in front of me to do, and to let go of the outcome. I pray that I am not alone in praying all this, and not alone in working for this.
Now is the needed time
right now is the needed time
right now is the needed time

Thursday, April 09, 2009

Salvation on Sand Mountain

Through some friends on Goodreads, I found out about Salvation on Sand Mountain by Dennis Covington, written over a decade ago. Covington was a journalist who covered the trial of a snake-handling preacher who was accused, and later convicted, of the attempted murder of his wife by forcing her to endure the bites of the rattlesnakes that he kept. Covington became fascinated with this sub-culture, and decides to write a book about them. I don't know if he intended a more scholarly, journalistic, or at least distanced work when he began, but the book is as much or about his own spiritual transformation as a result of his experiences with the snake-handlers as it is about the handlers themselves. 
I was interested to read this book because Sand Mountain is very important to the Sacred Harp singing tradition, and I wondered if there was any connection. I combed the book for any Sacred Harp references, but beyond the lyrics to one hymn (and though many hymns in Protestant hymnals have the same words as those in the Sacred Harp, they're hardly Sacred Harp tunes), there were none. Nonetheless, I think this book has a lot to offer Sacred Harp singers, as it provides another window into the culture that has preserved the living tradition of shapenote singing. This is especially true for those of us who come from the West and North, as well as those of us who grew up without a faith tradition or have drifted from that tradition.
Here's where you should stop reading me and go read Covington, because I'm about to give away a lot of the story.
In the process of learning about the snake handling tradition, Covington discovers that this form of worship only occurs in specific places-- those on the edges of the old ways and the new. People in the backwoods don't practice it, those near cities do. It is also an evangelical practice: practictioners are doing it as a witness against what they perceive as the moral decay around them, and as a means of winning converts.  At first, I was sort of surprised that snake-handling and Sacred Harp didn't have more of a connection. They both seemed like primitive practices that would go together. But Covington points out that this practice did not appear until around 1910. As Covington writes in the prologue:
Snake handling, for instance, didn't originate back in the hills somewhere. It started when people came down from the hills to discover they were surrounded by a hostile and spiritually dead culture. All along their border with the modern world-- in places like Newport, Tennessee, and Sand Mountain, Alabama-- they recoiled. They threw up defenses. When their own resources failed, they called down the Holy Ghost. They put their hands through fire. They drank poison. They took up serpents.

Sacred Harp singing ins't meant to be evangelical in the way snake handling, poison drinking, and touching fire are. Electric guitars, drums, and tambourines as the musical accompaniment start to make more sense when you realize this. 
Covington gets drawn into this world and manner of worship, first by singing and playing the tambourine, then testifying and eventually handling snakes himself. When handling his first snake, he experiences religious ecstasy: he completely loses all sense of himself in the experience. His depiction of his experience was the lynchpin of the book for me. My feelings changed from fascination and revulsion to some form of empathy. And here is where I can make a connection to the experience of singing Sacred Harp. It is music that is close to the core, and offers a similar opportunity to lose oneself. Interestingly, the structure of Sacred Harp singings pretty much precludes falling out, speaking in tongues, and so forth. I'd say, though, that it takes you right to the edge of trance without actually tipping you into it. From time to time, a Southern singer will remind the rest of us of the fact that for some, Sacred Harp singing is truly worship. I think it's worship in this sense of surrendering oneself: ego, hipness, coolness, and all. 

The Quaker writer John Punshon explains the damaging effect that "liberal cool" had on his spiritual life. It was hard to lay down his ego and truly surrender to the Divine. I certainly have heard messages in Meeting for Worship that are smug, alond the lines of "aren't we so clever and wise to be Liberals and atheists, we haven't fallen for this God Delusion."  I'm always disturbed by this. I do not agree with the politics of the religious right, by any means. I do think that many (but not all) of their stances are a perversion of the Gospel. But I hate the superiority that creeps into some of us, how we're better or smarter somehow for not having faith. 
Covington and his family get more and more deeply involved with this church. At the end, Covington's wife is publically attacked at a worship service for not conforming to proper ways for women. Covington is allowed to preach, and preaches on the theme of Mary Magdalene being the first person to see Jesus resurrected. He asserts that it is a woman's place to work and to preach, and he's shot down for it. This event makes him realize that it's time to come down off the mountain and go back to his life. As much as he has come to appreciate this world, he finally realizes that it isn't his.  There may be a message in this for those of us who come to Sacred Harp from outside the tradition. We are, and will always be, guests. 

Covington maintains a consistently compassionate and honest viewpoint throughout this memoir. Given that his time with the snake handlers ends painfully and abruptly, it is to his credit that he does so. It would be easy to condemn these people, to cast them as crazy, deluded, or stupid, yet Covington does not. He respects their faith, even though he finally realizes that he cannot be one of them.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Back to the Classroom

After coaching for four years, I will be returning to the classroom in the fall. There are many reasons for this change, but the main one is that I really miss having my own class of students. The details remain to be sorted out. Whatever grade I end up teaching, I look forward to the opportunity to put into practice all the great things I've learned as a coach.